我曾经在哪里看到说，和两类男人谈恋爱会让女性发疯，一类是诗人，一类是乐手。据此看来，我应该算是最不幸的。
Where I used to see, the love of two types of men would drive women crazy, a kind of poets, and a kind of musicians. In this view, I should be the most unfortunate.
浩宇，我的初恋情人，师兄，我们大学里最炙手可热的“型男”之一，除了拥有俊朗的表面之外，擅于吟诗作赋，还具有超凡的音乐天分，钢琴、电吉他、贝司、鼓……不是样样精通，却也能够到达在世人面前表演的水准。我们两个人度过了一段十分光辉的大学韶光，直到我大三浩宇大四那年，刚开学的一次意外，改变了他的命运。当然，也改变了我的。
为了替我出面，那天，浩宇和别系几个总是欺压我的男生发生了口角，继而打架。没想到，其间一个男孩子由于跌倒的时分头部不小心撞到了花坛，头部失血过多当场休克。尽管之后没有危及生命，但记忆力和智力都遭到了影响。这件事最终以闯祸方和校园付出巨额补偿而告终，浩宇也因而被开除了学籍。
我不晓得怎样安慰他，仅仅充满了愧疚。
没有结业文凭，又是被开除学籍，底子没可能找到作业。家人对他极为绝望，任其自生自灭，连每个月六百元的零用钱也断了。那年冬季浩宇很颓丧，我常常找不到别人，然后发现深夜回家的他一身酒气。我不晓得怎样安慰他，仅仅充满了愧疚。
那时分我大三，功课特别忙，但是我依然要打五份工，每天只能睡四个小时。只需这样才干保持我和浩宇的日常开支，我们从之前二室一厅搬出来，住进了老公房一室户。浩宇的心情时好时坏，好的时分他会做家务，去酒吧驻唱赚点外快，乃至会去录音室录demo寄给一些制造人和唱片公司。但是由于资格太浅又没有背景，浩宇很难得到欣赏。就这样消磨了一年多，俄然有一天，浩宇来通知我，他要去北京了，和几个情投意合搞音乐的人一同去闯闯。
即便浩宇永久都不出去作业，我也毫不勉强地养着他。
浩宇的北漂生计，一漂就是三年。他一次都没回来过上海，只需我凑足了钱就去看他。坐最廉价的火车硬座，十几个小时，只为了在地下室陪着他，他在北京过得很艰苦。结业后我找到月薪四千的作业，每个月节衣缩食，存下来的都给他。大概是从打架的那天起，我就确定了，这辈子我们的命运就这么紧紧地拴在一同了。我乃至想过，即便浩宇永久都不出去作业，我也毫不勉强地养着他。
之后，浩宇的境遇有所好转，他和几个朋友组了乐队，在北京的酒吧表演，获得了必定的知名度，居然有唱片公司来找他们了。我开端减少了给浩宇寄钱的次数。他说，钱留着自己花，别每次来看我都穿得这么土！也不怕人笑话，自从大三那次出事，我就没买过一件衣服和化妆品。好在我们上班都要穿作业服，省了我一大笔置装的花销。
否极泰来，我们的日子应该从此好过起来了才是。可令我万万没想到的是，浩宇在这个时分向我提出了分手。
你一旦宠坏了某个人，就要一辈子为自己的放纵负责任。
浩宇给我的理由是他想要专注做作业，而异地恋最花心力和时刻。我其实很早就从他朋友那里传闻浩宇和北京某个女记者走得很近。浩宇在北京的许多朋友和我的联络都十分好，他们忧虑我会遭到损伤，所以会好心地提示。可能是我对这段爱情太有决心了吧，我总认为浩宇不会变节我。我并没有正视这些问题。
我没有点破浩宇想要分隔的原因，我通知他，任何时分，只需你想我了都能够回来。我在心底里总是不愿意相信浩宇会离我而去，他仅仅被我宠坏了。你一旦宠坏了某个人，就要一辈子为自己的放纵负责任。
我们有大半年没有任何联络，我只能在网上找到有关他的近况。他小范围地红了，出了唱片，有了粉丝。我想他可能过得很润泽，润泽得现已不需要我再为他做什么了。这样也很好，我不是就期望他能快乐嘛？
我计划抛弃他了。但是，就在我准备和母亲介绍的相亲目标进一步开展的时分，浩宇跑来找我。他问我，可不能够重新开端呢？
和浩宇在一同，我变成了一个无欲无求的人。
浩宇是带着一切行李回上海的，乐队由于内部严重失和而不得不拆伙，本来签好的表演合同也泡汤了。浩宇压根没跟我提起自己和那女记者的事，我也佯装不知。一个星期之后，我们领了结婚证。
没有婚礼，没有钻戒，但是我一点都不在乎。和浩宇在一同，我变成了一个无欲无求的人。两边爸爸妈妈都不太支撑我们的婚事，但我和浩宇坚持。浩宇托朋友找了个杂志社的作业，开端朝九晚五。而我，除了上班之外，还接了不少兼职做。我知道浩宇的爸爸妈妈一向期望儿子找个有钱的老婆，这样他能够去做他喜爱的事。我那时分傻，一心想证明自己的才干和价值。
一年之后，我怀孕了。我们本来没有计划那么早要孩子，我们两个收入一般，要是生孩子，不知道驴年马月才干买得起房子。我思忖着自己还年轻，要不就先不要了，但是浩宇死活不同意。
他只说自己会寄钱回来，而对于归期，却只字不提。
由于作业压力很大，我的孕期反响又十分凶猛，怀孕五个多月的时分我就开端休产假，一向休到宝宝满六个月。在这近一年的时刻里，浩宇很辛苦，为了赚更多的钱，每天下班之后他都会去酒吧驻唱。我开端相信，孩子是会让父亲老练生长的。至少，浩宇这次回来，我看到更多的期望。
但是，就在我复工之后不到一个星期，浩宇俄然来找我商议说又要去北京，原先的乐队成员混得都不咋的，想玩重组。我说我要考虑，究竟你浩宇，现在是父亲，是丈夫，不比当年单身，爱漂到哪里都能够。
但是，所谓的“商议”仅仅“奉告”罢了。第二天，浩宇就向公司递交了辞职信，当晚回家就开端拾掇行李。我问他女儿呢，女儿怎样办？他只说自己会寄钱回来，而对于归期，却只字不提。
浩宇终于如愿以偿地去了北京，至于我，独守空房，底子不知道等候自己的将会是什么。白天我把女儿放在我妈那里，下了班再去接她回家。我爸妈至今仍不知道浩宇并不在上海。对他来说，丈夫和父亲的责任是在孩子六个月大我去上班的时分就完毕了的。之后，然后我的生命里能够为之斗争的就真的只有梦想了。
Xavier is with all the luggage back to Shanghai, and had a serious band due to internal cahuo, originally signed good performance contract canceled. Xavier and don't talk to me about myself and the female reporter, I pretended not to know. A week later, we had a marriage certificate.
There is no wedding, no diamond ring, but I don't care at all. With Haoyu, I became a man without desire. Mom and dad are not supported on both sides of the marriage, but I insisted and xavier. Xavier and asked a friend to find a magazine work, beginning from nine to five. And I, in addition to work, also received a lot of part-time work. I know our mom and dad have always expected his son to marry a wealthy wife, so he can do what he likes to do. I was silly and wanted to prove my talent and value.
A year later, I was pregnant. We have no plan to have children so early, two of our income, if children don't know impossible date can afford to buy a house. I wondered if he was still young, or don't, but does not agree with the xavier.
He said he would send money back, and in return, but made no mention of.
Because of the high pressure of my homework, my pregnancy repercussions are very fierce. I began to take a maternity leave for more than five months. I have always been off to the baby for six months. In this nearly a year of time, and very hard, in order to make more money every day after work, he would go to the bar to sing. I began to believe that a child will grow his father. At least, Xavier came back this time, I saw more expectations.
However, when I returned to work after less than a week, and suddenly came to me and said to go to Beijing, the original members of the band have mixed bad, want to play the restructuring. I said I want to consider what you are now, Xavier and his father, husband, than that single, love can drift to where.
However, the so-called "discussion" is just "tell". Second days, Xavier and submit a letter of resignation to the company, the home began to pack my luggage. I asked his daughter, what did the daughter do? He said he would send money back, and in return, but made no mention of.
Xavier and finally got his wish to go to Beijing, as far as I am concerned, alone, do not know what is waiting for his will. In the daytime I put my daughter in my mother and went off to pick her home. My parents still do not know and not in Shanghai. For him, the responsibility of the husband and father was finished when the child was six months old and I went to work. Then, and then my life can fight for it is really only a dream.